Saturday, April 7, 2007

Were you there?

Were you there when they crucified my Lord?

This question sits heavy on our chests over the days of Holy Week. Today is Holy Saturday, and today the tomb is full. Jesus has died a miserable and tortured death.

Every day in El Salvador we asked the question "What was hard for you today?" There were a lot of answers to this question: watching our cook Mercedes cry as she explained that she hadn't seen her daughter for three years because she had crossed illegally into the United States to try to better the family's situation back home; listening to young people who were afraid to play in church soccer tournament lest they be caught up in gang violence; seeing depictions of bodies tortured and murdered during the war; the sights of the ongoing poverty throughout El Salvador.

David Moseley, a theologian who teaches at the Bishop's School, has been giving a course on Jurgen Moltmann's book "The Crucified God" during lent. Last night he preached for the Good Friday service at St. Paul's Cathedral. His theme was theodicy the question: "where is God when people suffer?" Often we think about Jesus of Nazareth's death on the cross as the "sacrifice to cover our sins" as if what was needed was a perfect man to die. Moltmann reminds us that in Jesus, God Himself suffers on the cross. God does not exact revenge on an innocent human, but comes to earth and reveals his love by suffering WITH us. It is God who is crucified, God who cries out in agony and feeling abandoned, God who dies. God enters into the absolute messiness of humanity and experiences excruciating loss out of a desire for relationship.

I was struck by one of the relics on display at the Centro de Mgr. Romero. It was here where in 1989 six Jesuit priests were martyred because they dared to write that God was on the side of the poor. On the night that the Salvadoran ejercito entered the theology center and executed the priests, one of them was reading "The Crucified God." The book soaked up so much blood from the priest that it appears waterlogged. Now it is displayed in a glass case like the relics of more ancient saints, reminding us of God's work through people who choose to follow.

The German Lutheran Theologian Dietrich Bonhoeffer who died in a Nazi Concentration camp wrote that grace is costly. 70 years ago Bonhoeffer wrote against a Spirituality that provided what he saw as "cheap grace," salvation without struggle, supposed appeasement of the need to feel redeemed. This grace is not the salvation of Jesus, who calls on us to follow him in the way of the cross. Discipleship leads to suffering because the world still perpetuates the anti-Christian systems of oppression which diminish the humanity of the ones God created and loves. Those who follow Jesus are called to throw themselves into the gear-work of the world's machine of oppression.

Were you there when they crucified my Lord? The disciples must have asked this question of God. Seeing him beaten, thrashed, bloodied, hanging by nails through his flesh. Jesus himself asks, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?" Where is God when those we love suffer? Our faith in the incarnation causes us to answer that it is God himself who asks that question, God himself who suffers with us unto death, God who today lays in the tomb.

God then is with the suffering of the world. The Crucified God died with the Jesuits in the UCA, He cries with the hungry children out in the campo, and is there when a teenager is murdered in the name of gang war.

Were you there? Will you be?

Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble...

Monday, April 2, 2007

el salv blog


Being back in California and the United States has given me both a sense
of guilt and enlightenment. It is hard to come back and realize that I
have more comfort in my life, especially financially, than many people in
El Salvador will ever have. I cannot help but initially feel guilty about
this. After seeing the difficulties of people's lives in El Salvador and
how hard many people must work to provide for their families, I realize I
have often taken for granted the great life that I have. Also, it is
difficult to know that the opportunities and amenities that I have are not
as accessible or even existent in El Salvador. I believe that everyone
should be able to have equal opportunities and rights. However, this
obviously is not a reality after learning about the real conditions in El
Salvador. I find the people of El Salvador's reality to conflict with my
values in human rights as many are discriminated against and treated
unfairly. I know this feeling of guilt though is not want the people of El
Salvador would want me to walk away with and so this guilt transforms into
enlightenment.
With the realization of the privileges of my own life comes also the
realization of inequities present in the world that need to be addressed.
This recognition, awareness, and pursuit for change is what I think the
people of El Salvador would want me to walk away with. They want me to
take in all that I have seen and share it with others so that we no longer
can just turn our backs on those who suffer. After coming back from El
Salvador, I have learned to appreciate my life more, especially the
"little things" that I had before taken for granted. The availability of
education, which I have mostly taken for granted, is not something that is
offered all over the world for example, so I should take advantage and be
thankful for it. Sharing my story of El Salvador and what is going on
there is also equally important. After telling my family of the conditions
of the gang situations they were very surprised, and their eyes were
opened as the story and hardships of Salvadorians were spread. This
increased awareness will hopefully spread, and the world will begin to
address the needs and situations of those who suffer from discrimination,
persecution, poverty, and lack of opportunity.
-Elisse Larouche

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Romero Vive


Romero Vive
Originally uploaded by mangell.
I am sitting on my couch having just returned from El Salvador. Our group from UCSD has just walked as pilgrims alongside our sisters and brothers in the Episcopal Church of El Salvador. We arrived just in time for the 27th Anniversary of the martyrdom of Oscar Romero, a Roman Catholic bishop, and a saint in the Episcopal Church. Monseñor Romero embodied and proclaimed the Option for the poor in the Church in El Salvador. He sought to bring about a world where the Reign of God was incarnate in justice and peace for the poor of El Salvador.
We came to El Salvador as pilgrims, seeking to walk in the holy places where God's work had been accomplished. We found ourselves invited into the holy spaces in the lives of our sisters and brothers in the Salvadoran Church. We were thoroughly overwhelmed by the exceeding generous hospitality the Salvadoran people provided us. We were greatly humbled to be welcomed into the homes of the poor, to be openly invited into the painful stories of their lives, and to be invited to be family with them.
This blog will serve as a place for all of us from the trip to share our reflections with eachother and the world.

Mike Angell

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Nick's Journal from Tuesday during the trip

Today I’ll start with the happier news so that it can be enjoyed more easily than it would be after anything sad. Arcelio has been hanging out with us more and has really opened up since the first few days. He sings about random things like how delicious the mangos are and how it’s time to pack our stuff on the roof. He sometimes calls the girls names they won’t understand, like bugs (though nothing bad). We worked this morning after waking up too early, but only for about 2 hours, moving bricks, shingles, and rocks. Diana found a huge toad and was attacked by giant ants. Afterwards, we played soccer with Arcelio and Marvin. It was so hot. However, the small pool saved us. After lunch, we left for El Congo, another village built by the Church, like El Maizal, only having already been established for nearly three years. There are 4 such villages. We stopped for licuados (fruit blended with milk) on the way at a restaurant overlooking a gorgeous lake nestled inside of the volcanic mountains covered with beautiful forests. It looked much like Lake Tahoe only smaller and with fewer people. The restaurant also had the cleanest bathroom I’ve seen yet in this country.
When we got to El Congo, the first thing we saw was Arcelio’s house. It started out like those in El Maizal, but he did so much work to the house I could hardly believe it even after being told so. He added a new patio to make the old one part of the house, an extra wing to hold a guest room, larger kitchen with water storage, a bathroom, then painted everything very nicely, planted a mango tree out front, fenced everything in, and grew a side yard with grass and a prize-winning garden. Most of the houses have beautiful gardens, and there are a lot of chickens and dogs in the street. Arcelio has two cute kids between 5 and 8 and a green parrot that he made a cage for. His house looks great, despite its humble beginnings. Father John, the priest there, was a very cool guy from Los Angeles, also serving as a missionary for 3 years. He’s funny and charismatic and feels very approachable. He gave us a tour of the facilities, and I saw a locust for the first time in an adult classroom there. It was most of the length of my hand, then tall and wide. It was very calm. In Spanish, the word for locust, langosta, is the same as the word for lobster.
Here comes the depressing part. John told us about El Congo and more about the country. El Congo only has 4 toilets that use water, and right now one isn’t hooked up to a water main, so it has to be flushed with water from a barrel in the bathroom. Of the families in El Congo, there are only about 3 that have members who have graduated from high school, and only about 3 families are living above the national poverty line. The government won’t say what the poverty line is now because they’ve reduced it so much to make it look like there’s a lower poverty level. Two years ago, the poverty level was set at $315 a month for a family of 5, which is roughly equivalent to buying each member a leg and thigh (no wing) of chicken for each member for each meal. At that time, 48% of the population was living under this line. There are minimum wages, but a terrible system of them. In the maquilas (sweat shops), the minimum us $190 or so per month, but there are no hourly specifications, so the factories force 55-60 hour work weeks. In the countryside, the minimum wage is $3 a day. Nobody can get an education because the families can’t buy school supplies or pay for bus fares and still eat. In El Congo, John set up a system so scholarships paying for school and giving a tiny bit of spending money help students pay for school. The government had some plans for a better education system, such as required reading and scientific calculators, but never created a way to pay for these things, so it just doesn’t happen. In El Congo, the (assistant?) teacher is about to turn 18 and is finishing up 8th grade herself. They have computers there that were donated, but can’t afford desks for them, let alone the $2000 to pay for an internet satellite because they’re too far away for normal lines. There are classrooms for adults, too, where these adults learn two grades per year up to about 9th grade. They set up a system where they give school supplies for free to keep the kids in school and fed. John also mentioned immigration in a new light: people coming into El Salvador from the neighboring countries. El Salvador has the most stable economy in Central America, so other people sneak in looking for work that Salvadorans have trouble getting. They have no idea what to do because they can’t handle the immigrants, but also hold a value of Central American solidarity.
On to Padre Germán. I don’t know if I have all the facts straight, so bear with me if I’m wrong. He used to be a Catholic seminarian or even priest. The Pope came to his country and he lined up with the other seminarians to kiss the pope’s ring. He thought about it while waiting and realized that it was ridiculous and against his own theology, so he shook the pope’s hand instead. They exiled him (I think to El Salvador because he was in South America). At one point, he was working for Oscar Romero, and eventually the Death Squads came after him (after Romero’s assassination his name couldn’t even be mentioned). They told his family that if he was still in the country, they would kill him the next time they saw him. His family snuck him out (I think to Guatemala) the next day. This is the priest working with us in the sun, singing with us, and there to protect us from the gangs.
The Church here is so different from the US. Back home, the church gives people a sense of community and morality. Here, it is a living thing fighting against all odds to lift its people out of poverty and create a new life for the nation. It is socially active and makes real, tangible differences wherever it touches its hand. It’s absolutely amazing.
Now for the random thoughts. I saw a bus with a sticker of Jesus on the back window with busses going through his palms instead of nails. The people are all so happy despite the obscene poverty. There are lots of skinny dogs in the rural streets that have no owners. I’ve just witnessed the dethroning of Mexican hot chocolate, being replaced by a water-based hot chocolate of all things that was nothing short of incredible, especially after milk was added. Mercedes made it like coffee with fresh cocoa beans. We had to go to the pharmacy down the street and they had an armed guard out front, too. On the way back we saw a male prostitute dressed as a woman on the corner, which apparently is the normative view of homosexuality here because it’s so common. Also, we found out that Mercedes is probably only getting $5 a day to be here with us, and that’s coming from her older sister Doña Blanca. I hope she at least gets to eat for free from what she cooks us. She works more than I do, harder than me, and does it all with a smile on her face, but it would take her over two days to earn what I made in a single hour. Our night guard Duglas probably doesn’t make much more. He’s 27 and has a 5th grade education. He wants to go to the US to find a better job. They are better people than us. We complain about making minimum wage while they only make enough to eat beans, rice, and tortillas most nights. We lock our doors to protect our belongings, while they lock theirs to protect themselves from gangs. We complain about high gas prices while they are getting mugged on the bus because they can’t afford a car. But they’re still the most alive, caring, and happy people I’ve ever met. Padre Julio is one of the most upbeat and lively priests I’ve ever seen, and his church is in an area filled with poverty and run by the gangs. These people have truly shown me that happiness comes from who you are, not what’s in your wallet.